As I sit quietly this morning and contemplate another new beginning for my life, I look back at this past year...a year of struggle, doubt, tears, fears, break-throughs, rebuilding faith and unabounding hope. Several years ago, I wrote a poem for a friend who was struggling. I may have printed it in this blog before, but it seemed appropriate today. The word "selah" is used in the Bible 74 times. The dictionary says it is probably a musical or liturgical term and it means stop and listen. I have had to stop the tears and fears and doubt and just listen for God's guidance in the past year. It is hard to stop...it is hard to let go. But when you succeed...you are blessed. May you take a "selah moment" and stop and listen for God's guidance today in your own life.
~ Selah ~
The noise inside me overpowers me
My self has been lost to the self I’ve become
I want the journey, but I don’t know where to turn.
I know not how to fix me.
Escape the noise
Loosen the chains
Ask for help
Hang on to life.
The turmoil surrounds me, I can’t breathe
Mind dancing a million dances at once
Jumping through the hoops that appear before me
I know not how to heal me.
I don’t know how, I can’t begin
I can’t let go, the pain is too great,
Is it possible for my mistakes to fall away?
I know not how to ask.
Lifting up a prayer
A time of waiting
My heart is breathing, my mind slowing the pace
I paused for a moment and listened
Really listened for the spirit within
I am learning how to get better.
~ Selah ~